BIG NEWS coming soon.. (Saturday!)

As some of you may know, I've got some very BIG news for all of you. Finally, Pammy Cakes Boutique is on the rise after being stagnant for the better part of 2010 and half of 2011, but after much hard work and solid support I'm happy to say she has risen from the dead!

I'll let you in on all the deets come this Saturday... Noon-ish.

Until then, I'll let you take a peek at my schedule for the next 2 1/2 months..

It's gonna be a busy 2 1/2 months!

Love Always,
Pammy <3

On The Hunt: Lolita Shopping

As some of you may know, I've been selected as one of the lucky Loli's to grace the attention of one of the most well known Lolita clothing designers of Baby, The Stars Shine Bright and Alice and The Pirates! Since I'm a new loli, I'm not nearly as prepared as I'd like to be for this event. So I've compiled a list of items to help accessorize the BTSSB skirt I plan on picking up today @TokyoRebel..

- Plush Backpack
- Lace & Ribbon Hair Clip
- Floral Frame Sunglasses
- Plush iPod Case
- Cap Sleeve Blouse
- Lace tights

I'll keep you posted on what I can find and what my final outfit will be.. :)

~<3

Baby The Stars Shine Bright/Alice and The Pirates designer signing @ Tokyo Rebel in NYC!

For those of you in NYC that are absolutely in love with Baby, The Stars Shine Bright and Alice and The Pirates, well this is you chance to meet the designers in person!!! As blogged by the store Tokyo Rebel themselves, The only Lolita fashion store in NYC located in the Lower East Side has opened its emails (starting July 23rd at noon) to the first 90 people to RSVP! But dont bother with the +1 unless you're bringing you mom, sister, dad, granny.. because they are limiting it to family +1 only.. no friend +1 alowed! Even though I feel that's kinda lame, I understand its because of the small space of the floor, but i dont think that's a reason to limit between fam and friends.. :(
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WHAT: A free signing/meet & greet with Baby's and Alice and the Pirates' designers!

WHEN: Monday August 1 from 6pm to approximately 7:30pm. We will be open for business until 5pm that day; then we'll be clearing the store to get ready for the event.

WHERE: Tokyo Rebel, 170 Avenue B, New York NY 10009. We're located between 10th and 11th Streets.

HOW: All customers will be assigned a group number via email to get in. Please email us (info@tokyorebel.com) at 12 noon ET on Saturday July 23rd with the subject line "BTSSB/A&P EVENT NUMBER REQUEST", Include your real name in your email. Don't jump the gun or send multiple or early requests - we will only accept emails starting at noon and not before. (It's better to be a little late than a little early.) We will reply within 48 hours with your group number. Numbers will be assigned strictly based on when we received your email

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Opening a fashion boutique is a lifelong dream of mine.. Even when I was younger and wasnt really thinking of fashion from a sellers point of view, I've always sketched out little event spaces, stores, amusement parks..even future homes that I'd love to own. (This is probably why I'm completely addicted to The Sims! And not that I'm not addicted to it enough, but they are about to launch The Sims Social game on Facebook! Its kinda like Yoville, but with better graphics and the same nautiness as the PC game..) Even though I've always felt a bit silly for drawing up these things that I'd most likely never be able to afford or successfully launch, it just seemed that these ideas were etched in the stars for me. I even took a course in Theatre Set Design, hoping I could possibly upgrade to actual architecture courses... but the Math classes always turned me off from that (#____#;;)

Maybe one day I will muster up enough courage to actually show these plans to you all, or they may collect dust in their notebooks for eternity.... one day...... *le sigh* ...we will see..

~<3

..and she unearthed a single flower, and placed its powdery scent about her

I'm back from a brief hiatis from the blogging world. It was a short run brought on by..well, work. That's right. This Lolita is no longer 'laid off'.. Well, not much different though because as a non-union freelancer, my job can go at any moment with no safety net (or health insurance for that matter).. but i'm glad to be back!
While I was away, I did however manage to succeed in growing my Pammy Cakes line.. I suppose I've been much harder on myself than I thought, because in perspective I managed to have more than a dozen items avaialble for purchase at my own web address: PammyCakesBoutique.com.. A feat I never thought could happen, but little by little I'm trying to keep it going. For now I've hit a bit of a lazy brick wall. Summer is here and I'm anticipating Autumn/Winter 2011, but at the same time not trying to stress myself out so I can enjoy the fruits of the NYC life.. For the first time in my life money isnt a HUGE issue! I mean, I still have my moments here and there where I need to watch my budget, but this will be the first time I'm not on a steady diet of Dollar Menu items and ramen.. :D

That being said, I want to devote more time.. i mean reeeaally devote time to developing my company through getting more involved with the Lolita community. Perhaps this is what I really need than to just try to crank out half-witted merch just because i know i should be working, u know? So instead of coming back here ever so often to show you a new item I've managed to think up, I'll be leaving reviews of some kawaii blogs, Lolita-worthy shops (NYC/NJ area), and whatever awesomeness that will come out of that.. Until then, I will leave you with a few images of what I have up i my shop at PammyCakesBoutique.com



















Sorry for all the website being repeated over and over.. These images were used as promo each time a new item came out on my site. There will definately be more cuteness to come in the near future!
Until then...

~<3

Day 297, Lady Gaga ~ Costumes de Théâtre

I've been a partial fan of Lady Gaga since she began making a big hooplah around last summer. I mean, I do like some of her songs, but i never liked them enough to research who she was, what her music was about, etc etc etc... I just thought that she was your run of the mill pop star who made a lucky break w/ some awesome producer.. BOY! Was I wrong! o_O;; Not only until I saw her performance on MTV's VMA awards.. even before that..once I saw her costumes I was hooked instantly. And now she has become my new obsession..amongst other things.. :D

Just the sheer boldness of wearing the design she chose for the show.. the outrageous face covers.. the unnerving theatrical performance of the cream outfit dripping with blood.. It was great! It was as if Marie-Antoinette, the Phantom (of the Opera), and (Rock Me) Amadeus were all rolled into one wonderful, gaudy character! And I want more of it! It would be an absolute dream to design costumes for Lady Gaga, or at least have her wear some of the things I've created. To be able to have her as a spokesperson for my line would be beyond awesome (is there a better word than this???) Perhaps "Magnificent" is a better word to descripbe this feeling.. Yes, simply magnificent!

But I'm definately getting beside myself.. *sigh* Oh, to live the dream.. But its the constant chase of the dream that's the exciting part. Just like the game of dating.. You meet someone new and are intrigued, then that turns into a slight obsession, then you cant get them out of your head. Endless thoughts of interactions and scenarios rumble through.. And you cant help it because you are in, for lack of a better word, in LOVE! And it will crush you, no matter how much you try to succeed at it. If you allow it, your soul will be torn to bits bc of this love. But as all love/hate relationships go, it will pick you up off the ground. Even at the lowest point it will be there.. and hopefully the love will be strong enough to mend the broken, misunderstood pieces, and then the success will believe you are ready to take it on.

At least that's what 'following a dream' means in my head. But maybe I'm waaay too romantic to see the realities of what it means to be successful in America right now, but I know what it means to be successful to myself. That's enough, i think, for anyone to benefit in this life. I mean, there's not much left for ppl to gain here on our planet anymore. Our natural resources are quickly being deminished, humans are polluting and poisoning the oceans and the only air we have to breathe. And then there's the issue of the garbage. The metal and the rubber and the plastics that can not decompose. They've been disposed of in such a way that will outlast any organic life it serves. And it...i mean we, the humans...are slowly extinguishing our own lives without so much as a blink of accountability.

But alas, I've gotten very far off of the subject. I've gotten much too overwhelmed with the thought and this has made me lazy now... gahh..

So I'm going to leave you with this little tidbit of colourful silliness..


~<3

Day 267, Qu'avez-vous dit??

So I was going to start talking about how the Brooklyn Hipsters are kinda slowly turning into DIrty Hippies.. but it hasnt occured to me until now that I havent yet properly explained what my company is all about. I mean, I've mentioned it quite a few times previously, but never went into depth of how it started and the ideals behind it, etc..

Back sometime around about 100-125 days of unemployment, I got the crazy idea that if I'm going to make my own company happen, then I've got to do what I'm completly obsessed with. And what is this thing? Japan.. I remember a friend of mine asking me once, "If you were to have an online store, what would you have in it?" Well it didnt really take me 2 seconds to answer him. I immediately said, "Definately a japanese import shop. And not the kind that sells 'Oriental' furniture or some Kitana display, but cute stuff that ppl (Americans) love to collect. Things that remind you of your awesome vacation in Japan.." Items like a Jelly drink from the vending machine outside your hostel in Shinjuku, the Twin Stars rhinestone kit you spied on a local's cell phone in Shibuya, the Lolita dress worn by a salery woman at Harajuku train station, who tries to hide her identity bc it could ruin her reputation at work. This would be my dream..

But I hadnt realized this yet, in the beginning stages. All I knew was I had this obsession with japanese street styles and the idea of that rebel mentality. It amazes me that there are designers and shopkeepers that are from these groups of rebel cosplayers, then brought their idea of fashion into fruition. Made it readily available for that group of ppl and was successful!


There's Lolita, Ganguro, Decora, Visual Kei, Kadona, etc etc etc.. I've since narrowed my category of style down to Lolita or EGL (Elegant Gothic Lolita). I want to ultimately make my own dress, skirt and blouse patterns, and accessories as well. But since I havent been able to purchase any of the needed materials, I have taken a turn to t-shirt production sites. Where I can supply the design for the tee & sell it for however much i want, with no physical materials needed on my end. Then after I'm able to make a little bit of money from that, then I can start on the 'handmade' portion of the company. But for now, I've just got 1 tee and a cellphone/bberry decoration kit up.. And as soon as the programs come through (& laptop), then I'll be able to put up the other tee designs. Oh, i just want to get started already! But patience is a virture!


The company name is Pammy Cakes. It was derived from a nickname my fashion friend gave me and my love of the Sofia Coppola movie Marie-Antoinette. That's really where the spark began. Here's this young girl, having to participate in an arranged marriage, move into a country in which she's not familiar..then having the whole world open up to her. When the king dies suddenly, her prince becomes her king, and she become's queen of the country.. the weigh of the whole government is put on her & her king's shoulders.. They're just a couple of kids, wanting to just live! She didnt mean to be rediculously decadent, but what would you do in that situation? You'd live it up as well! Anyway.. to combine that degree of decadence into fashion right now, combined with the modern lines of Japanese street culture & candy colors.. this is what i wanted to create for my customer.. Eh, its a bit complicated how i'm thinking of it now.. but it makes sense when i'm designing the graphics and chosing which icons would be best for the company. Its a work in prgress, yes i know this. But it's definately well on its way to becoming the next best thing. I guarantee it!

~<3

Day 255, Pammy Cakes and Computer Meltdowns

Oh computer faerie, how many times issues have i had w/ my PC in the past... please grant me something that will last longer than a couple of years :P

So the current situation with my online business has taken a turn for the even worser.. I already havent had any cash flow going into my projects, and my camera has been frozen w/ the shutter open bc of battery failure. Now, the virus on my PC has led me to use a malware, which deleted some drivers, so now that its back up & running.. everything on the Hard Drive has been wiped clean (all my graphic projects, completed & in limbo, and music files from fruity loops) so i have to start anew.. Yes, its been the first time i've cried in quite some time..but i'm now looking forward to newer, better things...greater ideas! Its kind of metaphoric to the way my life is going right now.. if there were a fire, would i be completely crushed? Then relieved to start fresh?

So i've got a plan to purchase a cheap laptop with an external hard drive. It should cost me between $200-$500 depending on how good a deal i can get from my fellow friends and/or neighbors, or both. I feel like even if i get another virus meltdown, i will only lose programs (which can be reinstalled), but no actual files, which will be stored on the external HD.. if i can at least provide this sort of security for myself, i'll be able to rest easy.. ;) Its an investment i'm ready to commit to, its an investment i have no choice to commit to at this point.. (must i always wait until something horrid happens until i actually provide adequit support for my company?) Better this happening now, than say, a year from now, when more important (or more expensive) projects could have been destroyed..

Cant wait until i can get my Illustrator & photoshop programs back up & running.. Have to shop around for the Illustrator, but just need a reg key for the photoshop.. all in due time tho.. Currently, i've been working my wrist raw (a good feeling 'raw' of achievment) sketching by hand & actually making use of the big tupperware box of old art supplies.. i have to admit, i've had that stuff for 4 yrs & havent broke it out until this week! So yes, the loss of the data has opened up many more opportunities in my forgotten physical life! I have gotten so used to sketching on the computer, swaping & storing, yet losing my god-given ability to the paper & pen (yes, i never sketch in pencil.. too much smudging - its the only thing in my life i can commit to, ack!).. but its keeping me sane & focused on the future.

Soon when i'm able to get eveything up & running for the online world, I'll post up some of the ideas i've been having..

Until then......

n_n ~<3

Day 227, Glimmer of hope? A bit of R&R after a tough couple of months..

So in wake of all the hardwork and ambition i've had over the past several weeks, i got a much needed break & actually had a couple of dollars to hop on the train for some free window shopping today.. Well, the flea market in Williamsburg didnt have windows, but it felt great to just get out of the house and enjoy the sun for a moment.. A friend and I accicentally found a really cute boutique called About Glamour and they have the cutest japanese stationary, vivianne westwood socks, cool accessories, and some vintage inspired clothing. We found out about the shop bc we were acutally headed for the Sakura Art Exhibition (7/31 - 8/27/2009).. The gallery is located at the back of the store (in a seperate room) so that it doesnt take away from the shopping in the front. Apparently, the Sakura show is only one of many group theme exhibitions in which you mark which piece is your favorite. The winning artist is then granted the opportunity to have their own solo show. How awesome is that?!?! SO yeah, i needed to be a part of that! :)

Then we came across a really cool tee company selling at the Williamsburg flea market Artists & Fleas. The tee company is GNOME enterprises and i bought 2 magents from them, the one with 2 bunnies, and an MJ magnet..(see pics to the left!) i wanted the MJ as a brooche but it wasnt available.. :( what can you do? But it was the setup that really brought be into their space.. someone very meticulously made a large (maybe 15 ft) tree out of felt, and cleverly made him a face that had the characteristics of Domokun.. it was adorable! So adorable, in fact, that my friend had the sudden urge to share a hug with the artist! He seemed to enjoy it..haha! So if you're ever around the way & feel like picking up any of these cute things, head on over to Artist & Fleas (129 N6, btwn Bedford & Berry).. GNOME is usually only there Sat & Sundays..



Let's recap. A casual stroll in Williamsburg, super sunny day, some cool ish at a flea market, found a new japanese inport shop, AND had a pinapple mojoto (forgot to mention that!) Oh yes.. this is what started off my day right! My friend had already purchased some sort of Pinapple chiller cocktail.. so the waiter asked if i wanted pineapple rum in my mojito. well why not? It turned out absolutely delish!












It's amazing what 5 bucks will bring you in Brooklyn..

n_n ~<3

Day 220, Thanks For Trying (wah waaahhh..)

So I've dedicated my entire weekend to updating my resume, working on a few portfoilio items, and filling out numerous job applications..then coupling that with The Sims all-nighter episodes multiplied by no sleep and tiny meals...... Not having a job is really getting to me.. :(

With the recent onsight of my pup needing emergency surgery, then the bills causing me to be late on my rent.. the months of June and July have been especially rough on the measly unemplyment check i've been recieving since my layoff in December. There have been so many things going on this summer.. Birthday parties, going away parties, picnics, beach trips, concerts...even FREE events i've had to miss bc i cant afford a train ticket (for those of us NYers w/o a car or a liscense, you feel me?).. I mean, even the simplest things like Shampoo, and a loaf of bread (for crying out loud!) have been hard to come by.. But now that i'm all paid up with rent, and a couple new roomies that would allow rent to drop about $100 bucks, has shown me the light! Well, to relieve that little crunch of stress, hopefully one of these jobs will come through with at least an interview..


For the past couple months i havent been motivated to do anything, job
search wise, bc i've just been so fustrated. I've been even contemplating relocation, if it just meant I'd be able to afford a proper amount of groceries.. Instead of getting, "Bread, milk, eggs....." Counts change, "How much do you charge for half a dozen?" Its been rediculous these days.. and i've totally taken the ablility to order food delivery for granted. There have been so many nights where i'd have horrible cravings for Domino's hot wings and shrimp tacos with tomato, lime and cilantro.. oh man! Haha.. maybe this is my system weening itself from the addiction of fast food.. Well, the tacos would be kinda healthy if the shells werent deep fried...and if the tortillas were made of corn, not flour :P But thats besides the point. I guess I'm just so used to living this simple life, where i could afford a train ticket bc there's actually money in my account (in the 'to drink & party or whatever" category).. but thats my thing. I like to hang out with my friends and eat and drink with them.."To drink and be merry", i live for this! But I cant believe that I have to budget weather it would last longer to get a 5 lb bag of potatos or a 10 lb bag of rice..

Condements have been very important component to the home menu these days.. a little hot sauce on a scrambled egg and bowl of rice works wonders for the tastebuds. makes you believe your meal actually has depth..hah. But that makes me question the cost of living.. Common sense would tell you if your economy is down, you're going to have to lower the price of your good. But there's now talks of an inflation? Really?? I mean, really. Its insanity.

Ehh, this is SO NOT working out.. I'll even teach English in Japan for crying out loud! But this is beyond realizing theres no jobs, but maybe jobs will open in a few weeks. This is the unemployment rate is on a steady rise and NY's unemployment offices have extended the payouts twice in one year, and i'm still hearing of being laid off in large numbers. Hell, 2 weeks ago a friend (and brief co-worker) told me the department that i was working for was completely shut down. Not a couple more layoffs, but the whole. fucking. department. What am i supposed to do with that? How am i supposed to process this??

::calm down::

Anyway, that's where I'm at right now..